i hate this place.

i got out of bed late once again. my pca didn't get to work til about 8:15 am. i let my temper out on the other pca who said that she would get me out of bed for my assigned pca. probably because she knew that i was going to say something. the pca who works overnight also came in my room to position me in bed at about 6:15 am and i was confused and i didn't know if she forgot about me, so i was calling the office with my cell phone when she came to my room at 6:15 asking if that was me who just called the office. she started yelling about how i don't need to tell her how to do her job. i held my temper and didn't say anything. the pca's write me up for enough the way it is. i would leave this apartment and living program but i don't know where i could find another place that offers a place to walk and stand while still getting pca service.
my pca that came to get me out of bed asked why i was mad and i said, "because i can't get myself out of bed and i have to wait for you guys to get me out of bed." she said that i wasn't mad, that means that i was actually depressed. i disagreed with her and said that i was just frustrated. if i should be depressed about anything, it should be about them pushing so many pills on me when i probably don't need them and they're probably just messing up my immune system and/or body.